EXTERNAL DRIVE

Lolo passed away yesterday morning at a reasonable and blissful age of 95 years. I did not expect it to happen this soon – this soon that he did not see me achieve the way I imagined, that he was not able to experience what I want to provide him by the time I am truly successful. I wanted to see him smile as he sees me grow professionally and personally. I wanted to see him happy just as how he was when he walked me to the stage during my preschool and elementary graduation, when he welcomed me home from my high school graduation (he was weak to come with me back then), when he waited for me to come home during college breaks and after college, when he talked to me on the phone while I was here in Manila studying and eventually working. I wanted to make him proud, to make him feel that all his sacrifices for me are worth it. By sacrifices I mean SACRIFICES. Lolo, since I was a child, has become a father to me. From the time our family moved to Romblon when I was 4, Lolo has been s...

I am not a “super” fan of beauty pageants but I like watching them. To see the contestants’ physical beauty, it is enough for me to see them in their long gowns or national costumes (because there is greater variety in these attires than others) but to gauge their wit, I really have to watch the question and answer portion. This part is the most important for me because this measures more accurately (in comparison to modelling various attires) real beauty. I believe that beauty is not superficial. I believe that beauty is from within – from the heart and from how one thinks. In this world, I believe that many are physically attractive but few are those with good hearts and beautiful minds. Soooooooo... When I watched the Coronation Night of Binibining Pilipinas 2014, I really focused on the Q&A part. The questions varied from easy to difficult and very good questions. In my opinion, no answer from the ladies was very good (because no answer gave me goosebumps and it’s disappoi...

Sa ilang taon kong naging estudyante, ang dami ko nang exams na pinagdaanan. Ang dami ko nang exams na pinerfect (haha weh? syempre joke lang to), ipinasa at ibinagsak. Wala akong pakialam sa kung ilan ba ang nagkaroon ng aling resulta. Ang punto ko ngayon e kahit ang dami ko nang sinagutan at iniwang blangkong exam, ganon pa rin ang pakiramdam. Ganon pa rin ang pakiramdam ng naghihintay ng resulta – laging walang kasiguraduhan. Simulan natin to sa panahon bago mag-exam. Paano ba ako maghanda para sa exam? Depende rin kasi sa kung anong exam. Depende sa kung gamay ko na ba iyong topic o iyong subject. Kumbaga, kung nahihirapan ako, mag-aaral ako nang todo. Kung nadadalian ako, magrereview na lang ako nang kaunti. Paano ko ba nasasabi kung mahirap? Unang una, kung kahit anong pilit ng intindi ko sa kanya, nalilito ako. Komplikado. Meron din namang komplikado na nga, sobrang haba pa. Pwede ring komplikado, mahaba at halos memorization. Paano ako mag-aral nang todo? Syempre, ...

Hi Tart! Meron ulit akong blog entry for you, March 2014 edition. Kung bubusisiin mo ang blog na to, may  entry ako para sa “The sweetest so far” pero ngayon, super na-break break break mo na ang record na iyon. Almost a year na tayong “tayo” pero alam natin na hindi lang sa almost one year na iyon tayo nagsimula. Simulan natin sa paulit-ulit nating binabalikang pangyayari noong first year high school tayo. Bagong estudyante ka ng Bracelli, fresh from Bulacan samantalang ako, sa Bracelli na ‘ko lumaki (kung lumaki man ako), tubong San Andres. Isa sa pinakainaabangan ko sa pagiging high school ay ang magkaroon ng maraming bagong kaklase at isa ka doon. Late ka pa nga ipinakilala sa batch natin e, ewan ko kung bakit pero ibang kwento na siguro iyon at baka ikaw na dapat ang magkwento noon. Anyway, pinakilala ka na ng butihin nating adviser na si Mrs. Faigao sa pagkakatanda ko (correct me kung mali, haha). At nagkataong sa dulo ka pinaupo kung saan din ang pwesto ko at naging ...