Sunflowers please

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During gloomy times like this, I just have to think of happy thoughts and when I can’t I just have to sleep; then again when I can’t I force myself to think of happy thoughts and then force myself to sleep. Cycle. Endless. Good thing is that I learned a new way to escape from the negative feels. I just have to look at pretty things, happy photos, relaxing videos. This time, I had to look at the beauty of sunflowers. The first thing I liked about sunflowers is that they are yellow. Yellow looks happy. Yellow looks light. Yellow looks carefree. Yellow looks independent. These traits are just how I want to be. Aside from their color, I love how sunflowers bloom. When they bloom, it’s as if they are sharing their beauty to the world. The visibility of their seeds looks like they want to share their happiness by letting the wind and the insects spread their tiny seeds. Sunflowers symbolize the sun – the sun that shines, the sun that lightens, the sun that comes after the storm, the sun that gives warmth. Sunflowers radiate life – a happy life. That’s what I want to have. That’s what I’m working on. That’s what I’m trying to live with. It’s just this time that I don’t feel it. It’s just this time that I have to look at sunflowers. It’s just this time that I feel selfish to want to have sunflowers even if it means having them cut off. 


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