As if having new true friends is unusual - it really is

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Last night (until about 2am) I was with these "unexpected new friends" in an unexpected dinner in an unexpected place which happened to be the house of one of these unexpected new friends. How did I end up hanging out with them late at night? Spontaneity, it kills me everytime but I enjoy it. By the way, there were four of us. 

To begin with, we have been classmates since first year college but we never had the chance to be close friends. Maybe I have been in casual talks and some kind of bonding with them but we never had the opportunity to know each other deeper. We had our different cliques that seemed impenetrable if one was left alone with a barkada to which he/she did not belong. That was the case until this year. 

Due to unlikely circumstances, I have been attached to these people even if they did not belong to my barkada and I did not belong in theirs. It started with small chats, jokes and then eating with them until hanging out. We became open to each other's secrets and we began sharing our thoughts and darkest secrets like best friends. We have a lot of differences but when we hang out, we make a good company.  

This seems a big deal for me; it really is. I did not expect that I will be able to be friends with these crazy people. I did not expect that they will appreciate me. I did not expect that they accept will me. Most of all, I did not expect that I can be myself with them. Perhaps I really thought of them wrong at the beginning.

I thought they were the last persons whom I will spend my extra time with. I thought we'll never get along. I thought that if I would be with them, I would want to evaporate but apparently, I actually don't. I enjoy being with them. I feel at home with them. 

I am really glad that I met these people. It makes me regret why I knew them truly just this time but it's alright. Well, I'm still happy that I knew these persons not the way that I used to know them. I am also happy that I am able to share with them who I am. 

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